Friday, November 23, 2007

命运就好比淘气的小女孩, 还真是会作弄人啊。 在仅仅的两天内, 我尝尽了人间的酸甜苦辣, 喜怒哀乐。 一切来得快,去得也快。 无法捉摸的光阴仿佛一场流星雨一样令人不知所措, 出乎意外。 就像荡秋千似的, 先是个喜事, 后是个丧事。
霎时间,这一起一伏使我了解了生命是无常的,是无法掌握的,是残酷的。无奈,却不知如何是好。美好回忆就如夕阳一样的短促却又印象深刻,紧紧地烙在心中。若我能拥有时光倒流的月光宝盒, 我宁可删掉这一切的一切, 会到那令鹤鹊羡慕的人生。
思念, 却不敢踏进那令我无法自拔的心境。

难忘的笑容,难忘的慈悲,难忘的你,难忘得使我忍不住又为你掉泪。

Monday, November 05, 2007

not too long ago. i was having some casual chat with my mom during dinner. and i brought up something dat has been a hassle to me since eons ago- my name.

obviously most of yal shd know how my name sounds like. theres no prob with the Chinese pronounciation. but its the english one i always cant seem to understand.

some pronounce as see-yen. si4-yen3. sai-yen. see-yan.. blah blah....

frankly, sometimes i dun even know which one is the correct pronounciation since there can be so many variations. which at times caught me offguard when an english-speaking asked for my name. coz being non-chinese. they cant use the Chinese pronounciation as a guide. so usually i will hav to repeat umpteen times before they can get a decent one.

moreover, i hav to admit dat my name when pronounced with an english accent really sound quite bad. SEE-YEN.

so often i hav to go thru those awkward times tryin to correct others and of coz to re-affirm myself. which im seriously sick of.

dats why i came up with this suggestion to get an english name for myself. preferably not those 'flamboyant' loud type. juz a simple one dat will make things way easier next time. and it seems dat now shd be a good time since i haven started my uni yet. let alone working. so i only hav not many cliques to inform them abt the new add.

and i dunno why i kinda like the word string 'AN'. probably becoz of my name siyAN.

i did a simple search on names with 'AN' in it. and ta-da the results.

Adan
Aidan
Aydan
Athan
Aryan
Adrian
Bryan
Dylan
Evan
Ian
Ivan
Ryan
Shane
Zane
Zayne
Zyan

obviously there r more but i took away the complicated ones like Nathaniel, Alexandra, Donovan since im juz tryin to look for simple names with 2 or less syllables. It doesnt hav to be the mentioned ones.

looks like i need to do some survey. help anyone?