dum dum dum

watsup!!

im having two tests next week. econs and chinese.A

and next saturday will be the venture investiture hike. 2D1N

so, i can actually predict myself to be packed and busy next week.

nth much happen recently.

went to singapore general hospital for CIP on both friday and saturday.

den was at the cancer ward there.

den when we attended on a patient

she told us some of her stories. and was saying that some of the patients in her ward hav juz died.

she sounded pessimistic

then we were encouragin her to think positive and reli hope her well.

coz she can onli depend on medicine now to continue her life.

she was so happy when we taught her origami, foldin paper flowers

and she's a fast learner, and thank us a lot for helpin her.

so yah, hope her well.

and then yest, i was at the pasar malam.

den when buyin those barbecued sausages rite.

a gal came to mi and say 'hi'

den smile at mi

i was so shocked by then.

i juz gave her that stunned look

haha

dunno wat she's up to.

haha

and ya, hihi jolene

long time no c

hope ure doing well

help mi send mi regards to pei xuan if u happen to remain in contact with her k.

keep in touch.

hihi!!!! todae's a big day, not for mi, but for PJ and rachel

happy birthday!!!! ( if u happen to c this)

so, doing my econs case study now. it totally sux.

not goin got hav any venture meeting this coming saturday. so i can spend more time studying.

but no one wans to go outside and study with mi. im been ostracized.

wu wans go out study muz ask mi along leh. don boycott mi.

lots of hwks and testd coming up. cant handle it all.

but i hav no choice. face it man.

everyday , reli everyday, whenever i met some obstacles in my studies, i will oways wonder y not stop studying now so dat i will be MUCH MORE 'carefree'.

reli, y suffer wakin up early everyday, havin to do G.P, havin to overcome the fatigue, havin to go home late, restless.

so y continue studyin...

maybe i made a wrong choice to JC

poly may be a better choice for me instead.

my mom oways hope dat i can go into poly

weird thinkin, other moms hopes that son/daughter can enter a Jc.

but its happen that mine isnt.

she scared that i couldnt cope with my studies, after seeing how my sister suffered so much.

after gotten back the promo results, she still 'psycho' mi to go to poly early since i now onli wasted one year, better than i fail my 'A's and waste another year.

sometimes i agree with wat she said.

but even with i cant cope with my studies NOW, i wouldnt go to poly

i don know y.

maybe im juz being slothful.

better than commiting suicide rite.

hah.

blah blah

hihi

long time no blog liao.

went for the ventures meetin todae.

all the new female ventures oso joinin us.

quite fun actually.

mostly is interaction games.

then headed home.

sleep.

woke up. study a bit. then dinner.

den actually wan to go out chut chat

but in the end. don hav

den played gunbound juz now....

den... den... den.... lol

so im now bloggin.

nth much happened actually. tomolo is sunday.

wanna go swimmin, but no one going with mi.

so ya, im anti-social. haha

think no choice but to stay at home and study.

there goes my sunday. haiz.

i know i know.

its been quite a long time since i blog

busy studyin and revisin stuffs....

den wheneva im online, usually will go play gunbound.

dats y.

juz finished part of my math tutorial

phew. finally

im so lethargic

and still hav to force myself to do this.

haha.

had BBQ last saturday.

veri veri fun and i can say its a success.

although everythin seems so last-minute though

all thanx to the great help from EXCO 3. happy?

lol.

dat guy didnt turn up for the BBq.

i don know y..

anyway, wu cares.

den hor, veri funi lor.

we didnt invite the leaders and rovers, since its suppose to be a BBQ for the ventures to know more of one another.

but then, they all 'invited themselves'.

haha.

one by one turned up and we were kinda surprised coz we didnt prepare enuff food u c.

den the famous pop group WU YUE TIAN was havin their mini concert at zhenghua square, near fajar shoppin centre.

and quite near our BBq pit there

can hear the yellin and screamin for far.

but i wonder y sucha famous pop grp hav to perform in sucha small square.

nvm.

im juz wonderin how shd i start off with.

im oways complainin and 'whining' abt the sch timetable 2005.

coz i oways ended up going home late, when there's so many empty timeslots in between my lessons.

but so wat. im juz an insignificant figure.

was registerin for the NS thingy juz now when i came across a question of whether r u takin Physics, Chemistry or Biology.

i juz dazed there and click no, for everythin.

they r onli lookin for ppl takin these few subjects i guess.

that makes mi even more insignificant. haha.

sometimes i wonder y do i hav to continue studyin when my compulsory education is oredi over.

haiz. it reli bugs mi to havin wake up early and cope wth the hwks and tests.

bo bian. im a singaporean.

i didnt hav any anticipation for any stuffs.

perhaps except the venture meetin.

the rest, dead.

im not lookin forward to anythin coming. ( again, except hangin out with my venture buddies)

im juz like a livin robot. eat, sleep, no play.

plus the stress from hwks and tests.

haiz.

maybe i shd be more optimistic, which im tryin to....

but in vain

i've no motivation to do any sch work at all.

im fallin apart.

bad day2

this is the continuous version of mi 'scoldin' dat big-time bastard...

everytime i think abt how we became ventures and how we unite togther.

his image juz came in, sneakily.

okae. i admit dat last time, we did hav diff cliques in our venture unit

but the situation hav improved tremendously...

we tried to involve everyone in wateva things dat we r doing

but some, or one perhaps, oways like to do things solo, as in literally by himself.

so wats the point of team spirit? when everyone tried hard to accomplish somethin.

but u juz don wanna be part of the committment.

once u got the job for the female recruitment...

u didnt even plan it well

everythin was last-min

and worse,

u didnt even turn up for dat most impt day, when eveyone was in a lost.

juz becoz someone said somethin dat is not pleasant to u.

but so wat? we need criticisms and comments to grow stronger isnt it.

u cant even take a small comment.

how petty.

maybe u juz don wanna face up the cock-up situation due to ur incompetence.

and we showed u. we don even need ur useless help in order to prevent the recruitment from been a cock-up.

u better juz stand aside and gain the credit after everytime we accomplished a big project.

and shame on u being one of our chairman.

u don even set good example urself

u seriously don deserve it.

maybe u shd juz auto- step down.

u all may think im being too harsh.

hah.

u all didnt go thru the whole procedure and c for urself.

its reli sad to c one of our ventures been so... so... so...

heck care abt stuffs.

haiz.

bad day

woke up early at ard 6am.

den bathe, prepare for venture meetin.

got all the marinated chickens( whole) and fish.

coz doing backwoodsman cookin todae.

when i reached the gate. its ard 720am

the gate closed. coz sch opens at 8.

so bo bian, climbed gate like others.

den start preparin for the recruitment.

i was supposed to help out with the preparation of food.

so i got everythin done. waitin for them to start fire.

it was drizzlin. makes it more difficult.

and juz when we decided to build a shelter over the firepit.

our scouter told us to stop wat we r doing and clear up.

can u imagine it??!!

we spent so much time preparin and marinatin and raw food, not forgettin diggin and settin up the firepit.

i was so frustrated.

and plus plus

our i.c for this recruitment didnt turn up!!!

how nice is this!!!

he said to cai er dat since cai er so many comments, y not he do it himself.

and indeed, dat someone didnt turn up AT ALL and let cai er handle everythin by himself.

dats the worst part.

how can he be so irresponsible.

i don mind sayin : ' he sucha big-time bastard'

he's gonna face his consequences, SOON

we den went the fajar secondary for the annual group meetin 2005.

nth much la.

den went home.

and ya!! my back hurts

i dunno y, maybe i over-strain it of somethin..

argh.i have difficulty lyin on the bed or walin ard.

i think i hav to go c doc tomolo.

comments and criticisms.

hihi.

todae is friday!!!

war does it mean??!!!

no sch tomolo!!!!

lol. lame.

but i still hav to freakin wake up at ard 6+am tomolo for scouts.

tomolo is our female ventures recuitment.

hope it will be a success, although we did face some problems and difficulties plannin.

maybe im in no right to say this:

everythin is reli veri last-min u c. we didnt even know the actual plannin and wat we r suppose to do tomolo until todae.

maybe there's some communication break-down.

but then, i juz don feel dat it shd be in this way la.

the process r not transparent:

we didnt know wat we r suppose to do and stuffs.

we didnt know how the whole situation will be like tomolo when the 'participants' came.

we didnt know wat to do for wet weather program.

we didnt know the time,venue,attire. (until todae)

we didnt know wat's the time the 'participants' will be coming.

we didnt know wat r we suppose to do when the 'participants' came, as in chat and communicate with them?? give out flyers?? shout cheer??

we didnt know wat to do if there's a lot of 'participants' OR only veri few.

we didnt know almost everything!!!!!

its either im too busy studyin and forget to check it out.

all its dat someone juz didnt reli be TRANSPARENT: as in be open and tell and update us with the latest situation and stuffs, let us know clearly how everythin is operatin and is there any probs anywhere.

but unfortunately, dat someone missed out all these.

consequences : few blur sotongs going to meetin tomolo without knowin wat to do next.

hopefully, we will be able to clarify everythin with him tomolo mornin, LAST MIN.

back.

back from weddin dinner. rushin thru some of my hwks now

think i will use tomolo's free period to revise my math and econs.

abt the weddin dinner...

erm...

okae lor.

those 'standard' dishes like sharks' fin , cold dish and steamed pomfret all present.

quite good la.

den my father frank quite a few glasses of red wine

got tipsy

start jokin ard with my relatives.

but luckily, im back now, in one piece.

hah

sch gonna be borin tomolo....

mainly becoz of the GP essay thinngy...

dat reli bugs mi

nitez

weddin dinner

im on my way to my cousin's weddin dinner... juz finished dressin up , spikin my hair... blah blah.

onli finished my chinese hwk.

wat abt my other hwks??!!

tomolo still got a GP essay test.

argh.

my mom said we will be most probably back by 11pm.

and by the time i reached home. i will be dead-beat.

so how?

how to revise??

grrr....

my mom said if i dun wan to go, can don go.

but... my dad...

haiz.

he cherishes 'family unity'

u get wat i mean

so... i juz stick with the family 'rules'

'first day' to sch

okae. woke up at 620am. cold like hell.

bathe, wash-up... blah blah. chillin.

on the way to sch. didnt reli c many 3-mth course students on that stretch of road i mentioned yesterday.

onli when i reached. i could c a few bunch of them.

den there's a false alarm. i tot im seperated from my class.

den found out, i saw the GP list for class. not CT.

phew. got quite a scare.

next. shitty timetable

this is the worst timetable ever.

i got so many breaks in between my next lesson. esp be4 chinese.

den i will hav to spend ard 2 hrs in the sch library waitin for my last period, chinese.

so, we were sayin whether can ask our teacher to push up the chinese timeslot..

so dat we can finish lessons early and leave early..

no point stayin in the library for so long.

i rather stay at home and sleep u c.

wat can i say. haiz.

our chinese teacher asked us whether the thought of seriously givin up studying or the stupid thought of committin suicide ever came across our mind.

everybody seems to be so 'angelic'

they dont feel dat way ever be4.

but i think the idea of givin up studyin up reli came across my mind be4.

when i saw so many ppl wu actually studied , but still flunk thier 'A's.

and for mi, a GP pass seems to be a lil farfetched.

so, wats the point of studyin so hard for other subjects when i oredi know i sure die for my GP.

haiz.

wats the point, seriously.

im lost. guide me.

haiz.

sch startin soon

SIAN AR!!! sch startin tomolo.

juz finished packin my stuffs: pencil case, files, bag etc.

tomolo hav to wake up early... argh.

i can actually imagine how i will react tomolo mornin.

hah.

den the stupid lrt will be packed. yesh. packed. i hav to 'squeeze' myself in.

argh. thinkin of it makes mi groan.

den hav to reach sch early oso. wan to check the class allocation thingy.

that stretch of road linkin the sch to the nearest traffic light will be crowded too, most probably.

so how?

den hav to 'make new frenz' . those transferred from other classes.

den oso new civics tutor and subject tutor.

argh. so maybe changes and worries. i might as well quit sch now and enjoy life be4 my NS.

muahaha. daylight dreamin.

my upper lips now sore-ing. dunno y. its like 'bloated and red'.

it oways happen when i had some deep-fried or 'heaty' food.

dats all. pray for the best tomolo. argh.

happy new yr 2005 everyone!!!!!

happy new yr 2005 everyone!!!!!!

didnt reli go celebrate and countdown for 2005. PM lee says we shdnt be reli havin that 'enjoyable' mindset as 2005 approaches.

onli went for lan-gaming and a movie. with my buddies.

MEET THE FOCKERS

so hilarious. so funi. so sexual. so exaggeratin. so NICE.

u all shd go catch it. its worth the money.

we sat on the second row from the front.

horrible.

my backbone hurts.

but wu cares. i juz wanna watch.

ppl asked mi whether i hav any resolution and new goals for 2005.

i replied

'get into a university with good grades'.

farfetched?

hah.